Nesting in Twenty Nineteen
This year, I didn't make a resolution. It's not that I don't believe in them. If anything, I think making goals are great. However, my life is rapidly changing for the better and in that spirit of change, a simple resolution seemed miniscule in comparison to all the changes inevitably coming my way.
2019 will make me a mother for the first time. As I write this post, I am a day shy of being 34 weeks pregnant with my son, Chai. Words come up short when I try describe my anxiety, my excitement, and joy surrounding his arrival. Shortly after Chai's birth, we will be moving as our apartment lease will be up. I'll be on maternity leave soon and the nesting bug has bit me hard. This season of preparation has bled into my need to revise my art process, style, and goals for my career.
Before 2019, I took my art in fluctuating degrees of seriousness. I would have moments of artist clarity in which I would create work and be visible on Instagram, and after a few posts, I would ghost myself, thus sabatoging my potential outreach, growth, and potential. And if you asked me, the reasons were always valid. They ranged from not having the "right" materials, to focusing on things that can make me money, to lack of confidence, to laziness.
During this season of nesting, maybe it's the arrival of my son or maybe it's my 34th birthday next month. Or maybe it's me wanting to finally make the transition from art being a hobby that I hope turns into a career and actually putting in the work to make my dreams a reality. I am taking my time with my art. In the past, where I would go into a piece without a plan and direction, now I stew over the intention and story I wish to tell. I document everything. There are mistakes made even through sketchbook plans but I am not afraid to show and tell them to you all. I don't have a desire to "post" up-meaning as I organically grow and acquire things I will share that with you. I have no desire to appear as an art guru with a spacious studio space with my methods all figured out. While I am an artist, I take pride in the fact that I am self taught and that I am a writer first and that I channel my words and feelings through each brushstroke, ink splatter, drawn line, and color choice.
This season of nesting has led to the creation of an original work on paper titled Nesting. It will make a debut soon, and I love the direction all of this inspiration and focus is leading me. I just wanted to be transparent with my life and art journey and bring you all up to speed. Happy 2019!